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"…Back to my purpose, this massive path I’m on
So in touch with my fate
Got so much on my plate
So many broken promises that I don’t even trust what I say"
Why was my shirt off? Charlie Fusco made me do it.
Ok, she didn't make me, she just said she wanted to see nudity during the talent show, and I used that as an opportunity to strip a little (still quite PG compared to the night before) #campmaverick
I was intending, until the last few hours before the show, to do a piece on Unconditional Love. But as I felt into that, I wanted to share more honestly from where I'm been, with life and business being so crazy lately.
So I dug up this piece "Pressure" from over a year and a half ago. It hasn't resonated this much in awhile, but certainly has the last couple of weeks, and I gave (IMO) the most authentic and passionate performance of it that I've ever shared.
Huge thanks to Sammy Taggett and Craig Handley for rallying your musical talents just a few minutes before the show for this collaboration!
For those who requested, here are the lyrics:
Running multiple companies
I run from these
Feelings, if you could feel the pressure coming up from under me
Thundering, rupturing
Everything you want from me
I just want to be
Free, but I’ve got these visions haunting me
Got this vision of ambition
That I can’t put limits in my mission
I’m so infinitely driven
So I sit in this transition
Trying to fit in with precision
But this little kid’s not fitting
Like I’ve got all the pieces, but I can’t arrange the puzzle
And I can’t manage the struggle
It doesn’t matter if I hustle
But does it matter if I trust in
The path that I’ve been on
Does it matter if I’m wrong
Sometimes my shadow is so strong
That I battle in this song
With my ego as I’m shattering what’s strong
About my spiritual gratitude along
With my casual questions of community like Do I actually belong?
I think I’m past this moving on
Those insecurities are in the past and now they’re gone
Back to my purpose, this massive path I’m on
So in touch with my fate
Got so much on my plate
So many broken promises that I don’t even trust what I say
Feeling crushed by the game
What a fucking disgrace
In between my complex lyrics I’m just cussing away
So please muzzle my face
And in my struggle embrace
Me with a hug just today
Heal me, take my problems and fuck em away
I just need someone to love me that way
But I’m stuck in this phase
Where I’ve put my lust far away
Playing the role of a hopeless romantic
Somehow hoping I’d manage
That I’d find the kind of love that I’d be open to marriage
But I’m either confused or just broken and damaged
Every woman I meet has emotional baggage
Or just boring and average
Or has a boyfriend or married
I wanna have it all
So I take a day with adderall
Get it ALL DONE, but there’s an infinite workload after all
And after all, these feelings I get mad at all
The shit that I’ve neglected, so I pass the ball
But no one’s there to pick it up
So I’m there for myself to lift me up
Rely solely on self to shift my luck
The man in the mirror, the only one who gives a fuck
Fuck, fuck fuck it all I’m giving up
I worked so much I didn’t live enough
Wait, no, that’s my ego speaking up
I’m so grateful for all the people in my life
So bright, so loving, equaling my light
I wanna give it all, but feel so feeble in my might
Cause I’m so tired of balancing
All that I’ve been handling
Rearrange my life dismantle it
Sometimes my fire burns so bright I can’t handle it
Other times, I can barely keep a candle lit
But fuck it, be a man you kid
Stop struggling with these demons
Demeaning the meaning
Of the life you’re receiving
And the light you believe in
And the brightness that beams in
Your eyes as you’re dreaming
And it’s those dreams that will drive you to strive for success
For you to find that desire the fire in your chest
For you to feel so inspired and rise to your best
And to bring yourself higher till you’re kinda obsessed
With the potential inside you you’re trying to express
And even though you feel tired you’re alive nonetheless
And despite all the time that your eyes are a mess
From all of the trials you’re crying and stressed
You know deep down inside you’re aligned with yourself
Knowing “There’s a reason that I was assigned on this quest”
To let the old paradigms die and rewire the rest
To fight for the light put the violence to rest
Igniting the sky with divine intervention
Blinded by sight I put my guides to the test
For it’s in my silence that I’m finding myself
Divided from my own perspective I’m alive in my breath
Reviving my higher perspective realizing I’m blessed
Divinely reminded that I am expressed
As an outrageous love letter from the Universe
Designed, delivered, and signed as myself
